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Trust Habits

Trust Habits #2

I want to think of trust habits, as practical ways to live out what I am taught through the Bible. This week, I have been reminded of my shortcomings. And, just how desperately I need our Lord Jesus Christ. “I need thee every hour” to quote Annie Sherwood Hawks.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths (Proverbs 3:5-6, ESV).


This week, may our goal be to draw near to the King over all kings. I realize, not all of you are committed followers of our Lord Jesus Christ. I invite you to come and join me on a journey of discovering who our God is. As I read the book of Mark, I am falling in love with Jesus. It excites me to see how our God loves. He doesn’t hold back. He honestly loves us, and is worthy of trust.

Sin has destroyed many lives and turned us into God’s enemies. But that’s not the end of the story: God sent His Son Jesus Christ to save us. We can walk with hope, despite what we may face. Even in our circumstances, we can have joy as pure as a cut diamond that makes others “oooh” and “aww”.

The Lord God wants to help us.
He wants to walk us through the good and bad days.
He wants to show us what true love looks like.

Dear friends, let us practice loving each other, for love comes from God and those who are loving and kind show that they are the children of God, and that they are getting to know him better (1 John 4:7).


This week, my circumstances have been harder than I am accustomed to. Yet I am learning to simply enter His presence. I am trusting my Father and taking Him by the hand, knowing He will give me all the strength I need. He is enough. He is more than enough.

Assignment: Take 2, 5, 10 minutes to sit with the Lord. There are many ways to have a personal devotion or “quiet time”. However, for this assignment, I invite you to take this Bible verse and allow God to use it to speak to your heart.

Maybe, make a note card for this week’s verse. Then, take that notecard and go for a walk. The big thing is: I want you to allow yourself to open up to our great God – accepting what He has done for you through His suffering, crucifixion, and resurrection. Let us allow our hearts to meet God and accept His truth.

“The LORD your God wins victory after victory and is always with you. He celebrates and sings because of you, and he will refresh your life with his love.”

Zephaniah 3:17, CEV

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Chronic Illness

New Diagnosis: NCS

I always knew something was wrong with me. With all my symptoms, inability to stand, and everything else, there was no way that any of it was “normal”. There is just no way. I began searching for answers after quite a while of debilitating weakness in August 2013. That was the moment that I seriously tried to find out what was going. “What is wrong with me?” This was the turning point. I was put through a MRI of my brain (to this day I am not so sure it was clear like the report may have said). There were many other tests conducted, and came back “normal”. August of this year, I tried again. “What is wrong with me?” I would soon find out, but would I be able to really grasp it?

Finally, the last test I had would shed some light on what is going on with me. Why does it feel like I am dying? Why can’t I really do anything? Yesterday, I was told that I have neurocardiogenic syncope (NCS). Now I am not exactly sure what that means, other than I have a broken autonomic nervous system and my blood pressure drops upon standing. I will find out more in detail what all it is, later. One step at a time, I will get this figured out. God, my ever-present help, is the One who will help me to sort things out.

Lately in my reading plan, the one new concept that is standing out to me is wisdom. Are we going to be children of God who seek His wisdom? If I hadn’t kept seeking wisdom and continuing to search to find out what is going on with my body, it would be impossible to know how to treat it. I would still be asking myself if I was really crazy. God has been my provider through it all! The journey has been rough, but He has been my strength. Jeremiah 33:3 was my verse that I wanted to focus on during the test (tilt table) I underwent last week. “Call to me and I will answer you, I will tell you great unsearchable things that you do not know”. God knows what He is doing. We just need to be about seeking Him and His wisdom! He is our great Physician.

Even when we are tempted to give up, we need to keep going. Keep holding to Jesus, knowing He will get us through it! When we can’t go any further, He will be the One to carry us (when we let Him). Staying strong spiritually is so important for staying strong in the other dimensions of our lives (emotionally, mentally, physically, etc).