“But if I live, I can do more fruitful work for Christ. So I really don’t know which is better. I’m torn between two desires: I long to go and be with Christ, which would be far better for me. But for your sakes, it is better that I continue to live.”Philippians 1:22-24, NLT
Have you ever found yourself in this passage?
Life with trials or chronic illness is hard. We can be met with this intense desire to be with the Lord, yet there is the blessing of impacting His glorious Kingdom while we are here.
From my perspective: It is this balance beam of remaining mentally healthy enough to serve others and allow others to speak into my life to bring me encouragement.
I am normally the “encourager”, but these days I really need the encouragement myself. So I am learning to acknowledge the place I am in. And, allow me to be honest with self/others. To glorify Christ.
If being vulnerable helps me to glorify Christ more, it is far worth the depression and everything else I face on my really down days.
When my Grandma died in September, my mental health greatly deteriorated. More than I could ever expect. So maybe it is easier for me to speak on depression and self-harm. I hope you all will reach out to me, a stranger, or someone you know and love. Because we desperately need to be able to receive support. We all deserve a Christ-centered, encouraging support system.
The Lord has us here for a reason. He is the One enabling us to keep going – even when we aren’t sure how. Today, that is how I felt. It took everything in me to do the simplest things. I don’t know why some things do and don’t happen, but I do know that the Lord has a wonderful purpose for us!
Paul begins to touch on that. He felt this pull to be with Christ, yet realized it was for others’ sake that he was still alive. I am sure even Paul struggled with depression-like things. We know that he had some sort of illness that allowed him to preach to the Galatian Church (Gal. 4:14-15).
Trials and illness can greatly influence our lives, but it doesn’t have to break our testimony. Nothing can ever truly break our testimony.
Even though life gets super messy, the Lord definitely will still use us and enable us to encourage others – because this is the strength of our Mighty God!
Question of the Day: What stood out to you in today’s passage of Scripture?