Some days, weeks, or months, life becomes increasingly difficult. To even foresee the next “thing” on our calendar can seem like a daunting task.
I found myself in this exact place, where… looking ahead seems almost impossible. The only way to explain my week is, well “bad week”. Do you ever have those days, where maybe mental illness (or another trial) is too overwhelming to look at what is even in front of you?
Life with chronic illness is hard, particularly during the holiday season. During this six week stretch, one becomes reminded of what they are (or aren’t).
One might even be asked, “Where do we go from here?” Or, “How am I supposed to face people, in the midst of this?”
Unfortunately. Life does not pause until we are well again. Life sort of stops for those of us living under the pressure of trials, while everyone else’s keeps going. All of our friends and relatives’ lives keep going. Maybe, they finally set a wedding date, have adopted their “bonus” child, or some other absolutely joyous milestone.
Meanwhile, we try not to come unglued.
Maybe, we are too busy trying to just do that one thing: not come completely unglued.
We are deliberately attempting to find our new normal. It may not even be a version of normal we want, but it is what we have been given.
Life keeps going, even when we aren’t anywhere near a “happy normal.” Life keeps going, and we have to discover how to live the life we have been given – alongside the trials.
I know God uses everything in my life. Some days are fiercely more difficult than others. This week was one of those weeks, where there was a lot going on behind the scenes. Not even I know what God was doing behind the scenes during this week.
. . . But, I am choosing to trust Him anyway.
I am choosing to believe that He is working out all things for my ultimate good, even when I definitely don’t see it. My life is sort of like a painting. In the middle of the painted strokes, it may not look much like a masterpiece. But this Artist has an amazing reputation. Imagine if you saw a well loved painting before it was finished. Would you still see it as treasured before it was finished? We are so loved and cherished by our great God.
Even though the painting doesn’t look like a masterpiece right now, I can trust the Artist. The Creator has well proved His capabilities, so this is why I can trust Him.
I know that You can do all things, and that no thought or purpose of Yours can be restrained or thwarted (Job 42:2, AMP).
We are assured and know that [God being a partner in their labor] all things work together and are [fitting into a plan] for good to and for those who love God and are called according to [His] design and purpose (Romans 8:28).