Last few mornings, I have been enjoying my new morning routine. Morning routines and me haven’t always gone well together, especially when you add in chronic illness and heavy depression. They can seem absolutely impossible. Which is why I seldom have one.
Right now, the habit of intentionally setting my alarm and getting up when it goes off…
- gives me joy in those moments.
- helps me fight and not give up.
The depression is still heavy, and chronic illness is definitely still there. It just helps me meet with God and to not give up. Intentionally getting up in the morning, reminds me God is in this with me.
My Morning Routine –
With Summer’s temperatures arriving very soon, I have been setting my alarm (really early, 5:30-6 AM), just to try and get a few things done.
- Coloring a pretty picture before my energy levels drop.
- Read that Bible chapter, I keep saying I am going to read or write out.
- Even taking a few moments to just move my body, however it allows for me to. This one is obviously the more challenging one. My body tends to suffer major levels of weakness || fatigue, with the majority of all exercise movements.
A Bit of Honesty?
The longer I suffer with chronic illness and deep depression, the harder everything is. So, I absolutely will celebrate these mornings of intentionally seeking the Lord and self care.
I don’t like the drowning feeling I have been getting with the deeper depression. It has been so hard to do the simplest of things. I, like others, need a reason to get up with each morning. It’s always been a struggle of finding that reason to get up, as I have wrestled with depression for most of my life.
Setting my alarm, doing some gentle movements, eating a well balanced (but easy to fix) breakfast, and reading my Bible is the perfect way to begin my day (even if I can’t do all those things).
Connecting with our sweet Savior at the beginning of my day – is exactly what my heart needs.
The truth is – our sweet Savior wants to meet each of us in the middle of our knee deep trials or busyness.
I am choosing to trust that He wants to meet me in the middle of my mess. And friends, I am choosing to let Him. We each need to find the morning routine that works for us in our circumstances. Today, I could do those things; but tomorrow, I may fail miserably at it.
The real “morning routine” (a thing I intentionally do each day) is learning to run to Jesus, living out Psalm 90:14. It’s connecting with Jesus each morning and seeking His peace in the middle of my mess.
What does your morning routine look like? How do you handle the days, when you aren’t quite as intentional in seeking Christ?
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