Chronic Illness Dreams and Longing

From Wastelands to Rivers

The last post I wrote was on the hindrance that can keep us from experiencing a more abundant life. Though often unwell due to illnesses, I know my perspective needs work. The questions I asked in the last post were for me, not anyone else. Today, I want to address the dangers of having a rear-view mirror focus.

I am reminded of Lot’s wife (see Genesis 19:1-26). Lot’s uncle, Abraham, is a man who sought and obeyed the Lord God Almighty. One day, it became evident that Lot and his herdsmen needed to go else. There was more blessings than their land allowed, so Lot and all he had moved to the place of his choice. There was a land filled with sin and corruption, where none sought God. This brings us to Lot’s wife. It became time where God would issue judgment against the land, for their refusing to seek God. Lot and his family would be spared. Only, one problem? The wife.

Though surely she must have known the danger. Surely Lot told her “God said, Do not look back”. I mean, right? God is destroying the city. God is moving them somewhere brand new. It’s a new start. Even the chance to begin seeking God honestly and completely changing their lives – for the better. It may not seem like it, but a shift in circumstances can bring new opportunities.

They are on their way to this new life.
Then, Lot’s wife does the unthinkable…
She looks back.

Unfortunately, that’s kinda it for Lot’s wife. She knew the dangers of a rear-view mirror focus, and that is the end of her story. She perished. The temptation to look back was far too great. God made sure they knew not to look back. But, maybe she thought a small glimpse wouldn’t hurt. Only she couldn’t stop looking… A rear-view mirror focus can be pure destruction. God wants to do something new in our lives. Does it look crazy different than before we became “under construction”? Absolutely, but God is doing something new. Won’t we trust Him?

“For I am about to do something new. See, I have already begun! Do you
not see it? I will make a pathway through the wilderness. I will create
rivers in the dry wasteland.” – Isaiah 43:19

Reflection Activities:

  1. How are you struggling to trust God where He has placed you?
  2. In what way are you tempted to look back?
  3. Spend time in prayer, and seeking God in His Word.

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